[00:00.00]I Love You Boy (Explicit) - Russ [00:00.16]Composed by：Philip Chang/Blest Jones/Aaron Cheung/Russell Vitale [00:00.42]Produced by：Aaron Paris/UNKWN/Blessed Jones/Russ [00:00.64]I love you boy [00:04.22]Run before they kill you run [00:11.78]I love you boy [00:15.12]Run before they kill you run [00:19.63]Yeah [00:20.97]You grew up in a environment that was hostile and got wild [00:24.82]Arguments you heard as a small child had an effect [00:27.71]That left you with a lot to undo [00:29.53]Your first words was screamin' at your mom sayin' **** you [00:32.25]Imagine the visual diaper on already dealin' with the residual [00:36.43]Effects of an explosive father figure was difficult [00:39.30]Mama was miserable his love felt conditional [00:41.73]You better be perfect otherwise he'll be hypocritical [00:44.53]Belittle you 'til you nothin' yeah hurts to listen [00:46.98]Neither parent knew how to regulate the nervous system [00:49.82]That was reactive mom was fatalistic [00:52.38]No one to protect you grandfather paid a visit [00:55.09]To take you and your siblings and your mama far away [00:57.52]Twenty-nine years later she regrets that she stayed [01:00.28]You were doomed from the start [01:01.68]You were hurt and ostracized [01:03.17]There's a wound in your heart survival mode you traumatized for real [01:07.02]I love you boy I love you [01:10.22]Run before they kill you run [01:17.83]I love you boy [01:21.31]Run before they kill you run [01:26.58]Yeah [01:27.33]The monster you created to protect the kid in you is hard to manage [01:30.97]Supreme confidence deep cripplin' insecurity [01:33.58]The damage that's been done is explicit and abusive and a critic [01:36.99]Nothin' that you ever do is really good enough is it [01:39.71]You didn't get validation from your dad [01:41.72]So you replaced him with the industry and started to rap [01:44.27]You wanted praise and acknowledgement and picked a profession that [01:47.35]People who look like you don't get [01:48.68]Now the range of accomplishments [01:49.97]Bein' ignored authoritative outside force [01:52.76]That you yet again apparently aren't good enough for [01:55.58]All fueled you your need to be liked and feel wanted consumed you [01:59.12]That's why you call a chick every night to come do you [02:02.00]Only to be left feelin' less than before [02:04.73]Didn't have the tools to manage stress you at war [02:07.38]With yourself you need love [02:08.85]Drinkin' to forget that bein' you is not enough [02:11.61]Overcompensatin' in interviews tryna prove that you right [02:14.74]Maybe then you'll be liked [02:16.16]Tryna prove you're worthy of approval you weren't shown in your home [02:19.46]I'm sorry that I ever left you all alone [02:23.98]I love you boy I'm sorry [02:27.42]Run before they kill you run [02:34.94]I love you boy [02:38.50]Run before they kill you run [02:43.40]Yeah [02:44.81]You deserve a pat on the back and a round of applause [02:47.73]The sound of this song makes you think I'm not proud but you wrong [02:50.38]Look how far you took it international bookings [02:52.55]You gave your family a cushion [02:53.91]And through the hate you kept pushin' [02:55.41]Knew you had people lookin' up to you [02:56.97]You held your composure [02:57.98]As hell moved close to you you a soldier [02:59.91]It's a shock that you were ever sober [03:01.59]I never told you how I feel I apologize [03:04.03]Lot of guys would've folded I guess I'm not surprised [03:06.55]You prophesized this from the get go [03:08.30]Anything you wanted went and got it 'cause you said so [03:11.06]Packs of women fightin' over you like Shevchenko [03:13.84]Seven figure checks private jets [03:15.47]Your best friends know your character [03:17.25]You proved that by sharin' your successes and blessings [03:20.01]But when you hurt we hurt [03:21.58]Breakdowns mean that it's time for a rebirth so [03:24.56]You carried me as far as you could go [03:26.50]Now it's time to say goodbye before I leave [03:28.66]You should know though yeah [03:30.20]I love you boy [03:33.70]Run before they kill you run [03:41.25]I love you boy [03:44.66]Run before they kill you run